Friday, May 11, 2012

Terrible

I'm getting absolutely dreadful at updating this.
Between finals, working nonstop, moving, and new family issues to deal with, blogging, let alone working out, have been the last things on my mind.
I do apologize for my absence though.
But anyways, since I no longer have a gym that I get free access to, I ventured outdoors for my run and headed due South. I found myself in richy rich houses of Palma Ceia. It was gorgeous. I was so entranced by the houses that I flew through a 2.4 mile run in 20 minutes or so (I mapped it out later on mapmyrun.com). I had a good time, it cleared my head, and I enjoyed some alone time. However, one bad factor about Florida running: it's hot. Like super hot. So I have to wake up early. 
And who really wants to do that?

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Another Day

Another set of yoga done.
I like yoga. 
I like the stretch I feel because I'm very inflexible naturally. The stretch makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something, like this working out thing is actually working.
 It's the little things that really make me feel accomplished in working out. It's not the weight loss, or the inches lost, though that would be nice, but no. It's really about seeing the sweat ring around my neckline increase as I run harder. It's about craving sugar and junkfood less, and wanting more fruits and veggies. It's about that crave to sweat, that crave to work.
I want my venture to end as a success story. I don't want to stay the same, that's why I started. 
And this is why I started this blog. Because this journey isn't easy. It isn't an overnight thing. It's difficult and sometimes you do lose motivation and you do just want to quit. It's a struggle to keep going. Some people would make it seem differently, that they never gave up, but that isn't the majority of wishers. 
I started this blog not only to motivate myself, but to show that this isn't an easy journey, that it is difficult. But that even though you can lose motivation, you can gain it back. Don't give up though. 
I can do this. And so can you.
 

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Finally!

I ran again!
Two weeks of illness, business, and laziness later and I did it!
Goodness, I feel fantastic!
Like beyond.
And I finished my papers and readings, am signing the lease on my apartment, and am working like a fiend.
I feel so great today.
I look like a dork.
But I'm chillin today with my leftover chipotle and my phone.
A match made in heaven.


Monday, April 23, 2012

Pardon

My absence. I have been sick, working forever, and just plain pooped.
Also, it's the last week of school before finals, so it's a bit stressful as well.
However, I have not been able to work out in over a week.
And I've gained probably about five pounds.
And I feel gross.
And I'm not happy.
So I'm going to try to change that this week.
But, right now, I have too much work to really write a lengthy post, so I will leave it at that.
I'll be back soon friends, I promise.
Until then, it's just me and my Popol Vuh and my tea.
 

Monday, April 16, 2012

Emotions.

I have a lot of them. 
I have a lot to deal with and no clue what to do.
I wish I could exercise to cope, but I feel like that will hinder my healing from the flu process and all.
However, since I cannot, I will keep it bottled and just explode soon.
Hopefully explode through sprinting on the treadmill. 
That would be nice.
But in other news,
Go Caps! Rock the Red!
 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Still Sick

This will teach me to laugh at my dad when he tells me to get a flu shot.
The flu-y part of my illness is gone, so I can walk without pain and my temperatures aren't fluctuating as much as a menopausal woman. However, I am still super congested (but I mean, who really needs to breathe out of one or even both nostrils? I'm spoiled, I know.), and I'm coughing up a lung every fifteen minutes or so (ab workout? lolz.). I was going to do some yoga today, but then I decided that chillin on the couch, watching bad Sunday afternoon television whilst trying to figure out my monetary situation was so much more fun. 
Maybe I'll get around to plucking my eyebrows today.
Then it'll be a productive day. 
Obviously.
Good God, Lemon. I look tired. But I love tea. : )

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Flu Season

was over I thought without me getting it.
Apparently not, because I have the flu.
It sucks.
It hurt to walk across campus to go back to my room to shower. 
And my stomach flipped because I ate two plain pancakes.
I ate nothing yesterday.
I am miserable!
And angry at the flu. This is my "too sick to properly convey anger" angry face.

Friday, April 13, 2012

So Sick

Today.
So sick.
Can't even move.
I want boyfriend back from bandtour now. 
Thanks.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Just Kidding

Somehow I tapped into my inner motivator and got in some yoga.
I'm proud. I didn't think I had it in me. But low and behold, I gots it.
Maybe it was typing it and seeing it that made me go "oh helllz nah, I gots to work out."
Because that's how my inner voice sounds.
But yeah. No more excuses. I got this.
Tree pose is my favorite.
And yes. I do indeed do yoga in jean shorts.
At least they're stretchy.

Losing

Motivation. Not weight. I wish it was weight. or inches. That would be baller. 
But no, I am losing motivation. I am so tired and my stomach feels weird. I want to go run, but I am all around too tired and yucky feeling to do so. I am disappointed in myself. I set way too high of goals to reach sometimes. But I will reset and start anew. 
Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Yesterday

was a work day so no work out for me.
It's either work or work out, I've decided. There's no time to do both! 
But today, my boyfriend leaves for two and a half days for a school band trip and I'm going to be eating well and working out like a boss. Today, I'm going to run and do yoga and some strength training. So, in other words, everything. And I have one more exam, one more paper, and finals between me and summer. Only three weeks until I can wake up, run, make a healthy breakfast, and work. So it'll be great. And I'm beyond excited.

Monday, April 9, 2012

First

run in a week! 
I feel fantastic. like beyond. 
And I threw in some yoga. 
I had some apples and yogurt, some veggie sushi, and some matzo with peanut butter. It is Passover after all. But anyways, during my run, I had Nelly pandora station on my iphone and I was jammin. It was beyond baller. And my nails are gorgeous. It's been a great day so far.
yum yum yum. 
Now on to apartment hunting with my future roommate today! I wish all days off of work were this awesome.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Too Tired

to post anything substantial.
39 hours of work in 7 days.
full time job no? but wait. part time.
i plan on working out for the first time in a week tomorrow!
but heres the truth:

Friday, April 6, 2012

Ugh

So tired. Losing motivation. Workinging 10-7 tomorrow and 11-8 on Sunday. No time to workout.
Maybe Monday? I hope so. I feel like complete crap.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Too Few Hours

In a day! Tis how I feel right now.
Yesterday, I skipped my 10-12 class in order to work on a paper due for my 10 am class today. All because I have two hours of downtime in a given day and all I want to do is sleep. I have class from 230-340 then work from 4-10 today. Then I want to sleep. I have no time to relax, eat, workout, or breathe! p.s. I first typed breast and almost left it like that. That is how exhausted I currently am.
But I'm lying in my boyfriend's bed while he's at class because there are too many people in my room. I never want to get up. 
But I at least got to use my employee discount for the first time last night! Thanks dad! and got these suckas:


So comfy. So great. So discounted at 25% off!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Weird

Strange weekend in terms of eating.
No exercise because my father was in town, so I was indulging. I need to get back on the crazy workout wagon. But I digress,
My weekend involved eating cheesesteaks at a Yankees preseason game, eating miscellaneous snacks on the beach, eating almost nothing, then eating seared tuna, edamame, and a nice piece of salmon. I was all over the place. I'm trying to get back on track, but tis a bit difficult. 
But, I started my job at Sports Authority. Which means I'm on my feet for five hours at a time and I can't snack while I'm there, so I might get a bit better.
However, I haven't been feeling well lately. I've been perpetually thirsty. Anyone know what it might be?
Meh.

Friday, March 30, 2012

One More Day

Of no running. My ankle needs to be in tip top shape.
I did, however, do thirty minutes of yoga and strength training in my dorm.
I think we are the only dorm on campus who have an exercise ball, jump rope, and an exercise trampoline. It's awesome. There are two exercise science majors in our suite, me being one of them, so it seems fitting, no? But I did this simple yoga flow workout from Teen Vogue's website. I was not expecting it to be as sweat-inducing as it was, but phew. It felt good. 
After doing a set on each side, I moved on to do 100 jumping jacks on the trampoline followed by squats, ballet lunges, tricep dips, push ups with my feet on the exercise ball, donkey kicks, frog crunches, crunches on the exercise ball, plank, and side planks. Then another set of everything. I was just drenched in sweat by the time I was done. 
Good thing too, because I don't know how much exercise I'll get this weekend with my dad visiting me! 
So beyond exciterated he's here!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Obsessed?

You know those people. Those people who make fitness junkies seem unhealthy. Those people who turn something healthy into an unhealthy obsession. 
But what about those who become addicted to the runner's high? To the feel of sore muscles? Is that too unhealthy?
Because of my ankle, I have decided to take a day or two off of running. However, I just caught myself looking up easy yoga workouts to do at home. I don't want to take even one day off from working out. Is that healthy?
I think...yes.
I am not addicted because I want to be the thinnest I can, I am addicted because I love the feeling of improving myself. My body has grown to crave that feeling of working itself. I never thought I would be one of those people who craved a workout, but, low and behold, here I am. 
This time trying to get into shape is different. This time, I don't want to fail. I don't want to start over. I want to keep pushing myself until I succeed. That's never happened before. Before, I used to go to the gym and dread it. Then I would not care about going again. This has become a great habit. I love the sweat rings that form on my shirt collars, the sweat pouring down my face, the way my legs feel like jelly after a run, the stretch I feel after yoga. Even eating junk food isn't as appealing. I just want to provide my body with what it craves: fruit and vegetables, protein and whole grains. Oh man, it's such a great feeling.
I'm addicted to fitness and I don't want to go to rehab.  

Oh me...

Played football last night, twisted my ankle.
This could only happen to me while I was talking about fitness funnies yesterday.
Oh the irony...
So I guess its rest for a few days whilst it heals.
But thats ok, because my dad, his girlfriend, and her daughter are coming to visit me today! 
So yay! 
and hopefully it will be all better by the time they leave. 
Shmeh injuries.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Fitness Funnies

Everyone's got 'em. 
I just get 'em a lot more than the run of the mill gym goer. 
Take February 7th for example:
I passed on while on a treadmill. Smacked my face and got slightly concussed.
This is what my chin looked like for a good two weeks.
It was great. 
But now that it's over and I'm not dead, I find it humorous. I mean, who else? This could happen to no one else. And I avoided the gym like the plague until that bruise was gone. 
Because no one will know that it's me without a bruise.
Then, today, I was running and managed to accidentally hit the stop button on the treadmill and go from 5.7 miles per hour to zero. I felt like a dumb dumb. But then laughed and kept running.
As well, I have tripped on the treadmill, almost fallen off an elliptical machine, and hit my head on a workout machine here and there. 
So basically, long story short, my gym adventures are a comedy of errors.
Shakespeare couldn't even write these shenanigans.
But hey, laughter extends life span, right?
I'm going to live forever.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Today

Is so busy. And it's only one thirty!
I went to class at ten. Stayed until 12. go Molly. staying through class and all. cuz yous a classy chick. 
Then I came back to my room, started my laundry, made some oatmeal, ate some oatmeal duh, wrote a 500 word paper,  talked to my dad, and online shopped.
I'm such a productive person when I want to be, which is never
Next on the list, finish my laundry, go for a run, and then pass out from exhaustion.
I'm great. 
but,
I start my job at Sports Authority next week. And I get a 25% discount. First thing I'm getting?
These sexy babes:
   get em here.
Beyond excited.
Beyond.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Success

Successful break day on Friday.
Saturday, I didn't go to the gym exactly, but I did go play football with the guys. And I'm more sore from doing that on Saturday and yesterday than any workout I've done in a while.
As well, I did a home workout today.
Lots of crunches, lunges, squats, and push ups. And some lovely yoga.
There was a bit of overeating on Friday night, but I did something I've never done before. I accepted that I overate and I moved on. I didn't beat myself up over it and hate myself. But instead, I just said "oh well. You totes got the willpower to move on." 
And I did.
As well, I just ran two whole miles straight without stopping.
I hate to brag, but I'm ridiculously proud of myself.
my sweat ring brings all the boys to the yard... ;)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Ima Do Me.

The more I feel comfortable enough to discuss fitness and nutrition with people, the more I get discouraged. I am constantly hit with "Why? You're so skinny!" Well that's fine and dandy that you feel that way. Though in no way do I think I'm fat, I am not where I would like to be. 
I would really enjoy not being deceptively weak. I would really enjoy not having to worry "is my shirt loose enough to hide my huge hips?" I would really enjoy having people say "Whoa."
Now with that being said, it may seem like I am doing this whole "get my big caboose in shape" nonsense for everyone else. 
Wrong. 
I am, without a doubt, embarking on this journey for only one person, me.
I want to look at myself and say "I did it." I want to look at myself and realize I never gave up. Realize that I finally accomplished a goal. 
No one should ever change the way they look for anyone else. It isn't worth it because you can never please everyone. The only way to go about this horrid journey is to want to do it for yourself. Now, the help and support of loved ones is important, but unnecessary. 
The drive, the motivation, the strength for this comes from within.
So Ima do this. And Ima do this for me.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Day Off

I'm giving myself one. I feel like after 10,000 four days of running over a mile each, I kinda, just kinda, deserve it. I've taken days off before, but I'm determined to make this one different. For my many years of yo-yo dieting and exercise, I have taken many a "break days" which turn into months of laziness. All it takes for me is one day to completely derail my efforts. 
"Day Off" has always meant "eat whatever you want and be lazy" to me. And once I do that for one day, I want to do it everyday. And before you know it, there went my drive, my motivation, and my willpower. But this time is different. I'm rewarding myself for hard work. I am still going to treat my body with respect aka not shoveling handful after handful of chocolate and grease into my mouth and just take a breather. 
Then it's right back to hitting the pavement tomorrow. 
But my break entails:
multiple thousands of cups of tea
peanut butter oatmeal
lots of House
and lots of Tumblr.
Happy Break Day to all. 
if it is yours, of course.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Foods

Should we do a post on yummy foods?
I say yes.
First off, because it's easiest because I make it, is breakfast.
Most important meal of the dayyy.
However, I don't eat my breakfast until either 11:10 or 12, depending on when I get out of class.
But my breakfast is yummy, so it's all good.
First, we have Chobani Champions Greek Yogurt.
Because anything made for kids is automatically 10,000 times better.
om nom nom.
Next, we have plain oatmeal. sounds great, no?
Kinda bleh. But not when you add...
    Peanut butter honey time, peanut butter honey time!
And my last trusty breakfast food is the least healthy, but damn it's good.
Krave cereal, which is little captain crunch like pieces filled with chocolate awesomeness, and some almond milk. 
Still working on that whole "eat healthy while still eating school food because I'm a broke and lazy college kid" thing.

Ima Beast

The past three days have been beyond amazing in terms of working out.
I have run every day, for at least one mile straight through.
My legs are dying. My butt is dying.
But me? I feel great.
I'm so beyond proud of myself.
Don't I look smexy post workout? 
And yes, it is beyond ridiculous how red my face gets when I run. This picture tones it down so much. But I look cray cray.
But on a side note, I got a job at Sports Authority! So hopefully there will be a post soon on the awesome new workout gear I'm going to get myself. Including new sneaks. Mine suck currently.
So all in all,
It's been a baller few days.
Yes. I'm bringing baller back. 

Sunday, March 18, 2012

One Step Back

Actually, multiple steps back.
I haven't worked out in about two weeks and I've been eating like a pig.
But no giving up.
Giving up is for lame-os.
Tomorrow, I'm going to lace up my sneakers and head to the gym.
It's never too late to start moving forward again.
 

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Thoughts

about working out.
Shall we do this in a fun little pros and cons list? That would be totally rad, no?
Cons first. So we can end on a good note. 
leggo.
Cons:
-it sucks. hardcore.
-it makes me feel even more out of shape.
-I would much rather be doing nothing.

Pros:
-afterwards, I feel amazing.
-one step closer to my goal.
-every little bit helps.
-I can eat more.
-it's worth it. for my weight. for my health.
I think it's more than clear as to which side to take. 
Though exercise sucks massively, it's definitely the right thing to do.
I need to remember this. 
always. 
but I never do. so whomp whomp. 

Yo.

Hi there.
My name's Molly.
and this is the love of my life, Pups!
I am a chocoholic with a knack for being lazy.
By January of next year, I want to participate in the Disney Princess Half Marathon.
Which is thirteen point one miles more than I'm running now.
I know, terrible.
But my habits of being a lazy chocoholic have slightly caught up with me as well, causing my body to quietly scream out for some exercise. 
Sooooo why not put a goal in mind?
My goal: be able to run 13.1 miles by next January.
Wish me luck!